Survivor guilt occurs when a person believes they have done something wrong by surviving a traumatic event when others did not. I haven’t taken the time to type out a blog post in so long… through this Pandemic, working from home and being in a strict quarantine for almost 6 months, life has been INSANE! … More Previvors guilt
It has been a while since I have had the time (or energy) to write a post in such a long time… The pandemic and South Africa having different levels of lockdown and my husbands auto immune disease, we have been stuck at home for over 3 and a half months now. We get our … More Random Life Update:
I honestly don’t know where to start…today a year ago, I had my Preventative double mastectomy. WOW! The lessons I have learnt over the past year have been world altering… What I have been through is not the “normal journey of a Previvor” in my opinion (or well I freaking hope not!) I have had … More 1 year Foobaversary!!!!
I cannot believe it has almost been a year since my initial surgery! HOLY MOLY! This past year has literally changed me to my core. I have changed my degree from a Bcomm in Business Marketing and Management, to a Degree in Social Science. I have just had this entire mind change and life shift … More 11 Months post op Update… and my wonderful thoughts 😉
I can say with 100% of my heart that this surgery was by far the best experience I could possibly have going through surgery. The hospital was amazing! My surgeon was amazing! DUH! And I was SO well looked after by every nurse, the anaesthesiologist and the catering staff. It is a small reminder to … More My Exchange Surgery 23-01-2020
10 months… I can’t believe that it was 10 months ago that my entire life changed forever! Finding out I was BRCA+ happened months before the actual surgery and yes my life changed then, but as soon as I was on the surgery table… THAT is the moment it had truly really changed! If I … More 10 months post Double Mastectomy……
It is almost time for my exchange surgery! FINALLY! My surgery is booked for the 23-01-2020 and I cannot wait! Every day I remind myself that my tissue expanders were the first step in me saving my own life and having my preventative double mastectomy! Yeah, they are sucky, they hurt a lot and are … More A New Year and a New Surgery
Ever walked in the mall and had someone walk too close to you and you hunch and cower or put your arm across your body to protect your foobs? I call it FOOB FEAR! Please tell me that I am not the only one and that there are others who have this anxiety about something … More *Foob FEAR*
This past week has been extremely scary for me… When I made the decision to become a previvor, I knew I wasn’t 100% safe from getting breast cancer, however I knew my chances were EXTREMLY low! (around 5% to be exact) Then last week Thursday while I was rubbing tissue oil onto my scars, I … More Nothing like a little scare to remind yourself to be happy about the small things in life!
I have been seeing this saying around so much on social media lately. I thought about it now and thought, I want to write down what I feel is my new normal (well temporary normal, until my exchange surgery next year, 2020) … I take a handful of tablets every morning and every night to … More My “new normal”…
Sooo… I had my LAST expander fill yesterday!!! I am in extreme pain, my back is killing me and not to mention the weight of these babies are HEAVY AF! And I only have 400cc’s, I can’t imagine how it must feel to have heavier… Shjoe, I take my hat off to ladies who have … More 4th AND FINAL expander fill (26 weeks post op)
Last week on the 5th of September 2019, I was exactly 5 months post op… I would be lying if that didn’t make me emotional but at the same time so relieved! Today I had my 3rd expander fill, OMG I love my new surgeon!!!, The past 2 weeks have not been a walk in … More My 3rd Fill (23 weeks & 3 days post op)
I am starting to feel like ME again! Just these past 2 fills have literally changed my life. I think the change in surgeons DEFO’s plays a big part in my overall happiness, but my word! I feel fucking amazing! lol. 😉 Today I had 60cc’s injected into my foobs. So that puts me on … More Second Expander fill – 21 weeks post op (& 3days)
I feel as if a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders! Even though there is weight added to my foobs, I feel lighter! I cannot express the amount of relief I am feeling today. It has been 19 weeks and 3 days since my double mastectomy and after infection on infection…. My wounds … More My 1st FILL (19 weeks post op)
Shjoe… 16 frikken weeks! I cannot believe how time is just passing me by. I feel like I am in a twilight zone! Today I have been on a mission to be the laziest I possibly could be and just give myself a break and have way too many cups of hot chocolate and watch … More Aaand it has been 16 weeks! PDM you MF!